EVIL

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And it felt like bliss, used to miss your kiss: She is implying that she used to love him and enjoy his company. But now, she feels bliss and doesn’t miss him when he isn’t around. She feels free, pretending he doesn’t exist by “leaving his shit on read”.

src: https://genius.com/28373484

Now I'm hop-skip jumpin' over ...: This is probably an afterthought from the previous lyrics. She is now able to recognize a “narcissist” by playing into exaggerated tropes, and not be bothered by them. And definitely making sure they are out of sight and out of mind.

Given the popularization of the term in recent years, this particular use of “narcissist” probably refers to Martinez’s personal interpretation of a highly arrogant person rather than someone who actually has NPD.

src: https://genius.com/28196868

Now the role is reversed and told you I'ma ...: This is a play on the sexual term “switch” which means alternating between dominant or submissive roles sexually, since the role is reversing the same as a switch would.

This signifies the power has passed on to her, whereas it used to be on her abuser’s side.

src: https://genius.com/28178016

Said it's all in my hеad, all in my head ...: Her lover tries to gaslight her by telling her that all the toxicity and abuse she feels from them isn’t real.

She is possibly being gaslit about other things as well, particularly her personal ideas and beliefs, a.k.a. “her truth”.

src: https://genius.com/28021747

If you bite my hand again I will never feed you: This lyric references the saying ‘don’t bite the hand that feeds you’, an ammonition to not treat the people who help you poorly; the author is threatening to stop doing exactly that.

src: https://genius.com/28002217

you can call me evil: She has clearly been mistreated by her lover, and is now getting her revenge. He has been ignorant and cruel, “biting her hand” when she tried to feed him. And yet, when she refuses to feed him because of this, he ironically calls her evil, but she doesn’t care what he thinks of her. He is gaslighting her, making her think that she is the one doing something wrong, when really it’s the other way around.

src: https://genius.com/28373494

Lovin' you was lethal, guess that makes me ...: This suggests that the Melanie has come to the realization that loving the other person in the relationship was damaging to her own well-being.

src: https://genius.com/28002223

Remember when you smiled right to my face?: This is a common allusion to the act of betrayal; the idea of someone smiling to your face but then going behind your back to betray you. The person she is referring to is two-faced and back-stabbing.

Since she reveals she’s crying in the next line, this person might also be mocking her pain, or not taking it seriously, as one would with a child.

src: https://genius.com/28154296

As all my little tears of oxalate: Oxalate is a salt of oxalic acid containing the divalent, negative radical (COO)2 – a reference to the tears being salty.

src: https://genius.com/28068528

Now I'm stop-drop rollin' over all your ...: “Stop, Drop and Roll” is a drill you learn for when your clothes catch on fire, the same way she’s learned what to do when this person is being toxic or inconsistent.

src: https://genius.com/28197084

Hope you never cope, hope you slip on soap: Not only is Martinez wishing harm towards her ex in quite the cartoony fashion, a fitting image in the overall impish attitude of the lyrics; but the mention of soap is a callback to her song “Soap” from Cry Baby.

“Soap” is about the feeling of regret associated with expressing one’s emotions to someone they feel a constant need to tiptoe around. Martinez is possibly using the reference to her previous song to imply that she hopes the person who’s made her feel guilty for talking about her feelings now feels guilty in turn, or regrets losing her.

src: https://genius.com/28168418

on god: Using this phrase after the previous line which mentions goddesses is kind of ironic since the character gets her horns from goddesses and not God, which would be the norm.

src: https://genius.com/28387450